|"To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved."|
- George MacDonald
|“I have absolutely no pleasure in the stimulants in which I sometimes so madly indulge. It has not been in the pursuit of pleasure that I have periled life and reputation and reason. It has been the desperate attempt to escape from torturing memories, from a sense of insupportable loneliness and a dread of some strange impending doom.” |
- Edgar Allan Poe
I'm sure all of my watchers have noticed the multitude of black and white images I've been uploading over the past few days. I feel like the images don't really have as much of an impact without the reasoning behind them, hence this journal entry:
My theme for this fine-art series was a comment on how social media tends to romanticize various forms of mental illness – for example, portraying sadness and depression as something ‘beautiful’ or ‘quirky’, despite the fact that depression has one of the highest death rates of any mental illness. As a way of breaking this way of thinking, I decided to portray the adverse side to mental illness – using the environment as a physical manifestation of the inner destruction and decay affecting a person's mind and body.
It was quite an experience to be able to get into this abandoned space - still full of unused medical equipment and the like. It was abandoned in 1996 due to short staffing, and although plans were made in 2006 for it to be refurbished as a fully-functioning hospital once again, the plans fell through. There are a whole lot of stories revolving around this hospital that I personally didn't want to read before going in there because it would have freaked me out too much just knowing what had happened in there. But I have an immense love for abandoned spaces and this was probably one of the greatest photoshoots I've ever had the privilege to do! I only wish we'd been given a little more time to explore other areas of the hospital and take more photographs... the guards were very adamant on only letting us have an hour to snoop around, even with an escort.
I have three final layered edits for this series as my hand-ins, which I'll probably upload in a day or two.
I really wish I knew about more derelict/abandoned spaces in my province! I'm dying to do more shoots like this in future
About the photographer: |
I've had a camera in my hands since I was ten years old, and I've never been able to see myself doing anything else with my life (unless you count my wanting to be a paleontologist when I was seven). My main interests lie in wildlife, documentary and portrait photography. Formally studying my passion full-time has caused me to push the boundaries of the medium itself, and as one of my lecturers so eloquently put it: "If you become comfortable with where you are as a photographer, sell your camera and start doing something else."
What I do:
Portraiture (both studio and environmental), documentary and wildlife, as well as beginning to branch into event and fine art photography. In my spare time, I'm an amateur novelist and practice art as a hobby (painting and pen-work mostly). I'm also an avid reader, with more books in my possession than items of furniture and clothing combined.
Long term goals:
Branch into professional documentary work
Travel as part of my career
Do work for Time, National Geographic or Getty Images
Backpack across the world
Create social awareness through my documentary work
To have one of my works featured on the covers of Time or National Geographic